April 26, 2015

A Journal Entry- 3 years ago

Jan. 10 , 2012

Dear Lord,

I'm at my breaking point! I feel like a horrible person. Help me! Show me what to do next. I'm tired of being two-faced. I want YOU in my life! Help me! Please, Lord! Transform me! Please, I am pleading ,desperately pleading!

Romans 5;3 
"And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience."


At this point in my life, I can remember being a typical teenager. I was disrespectful to my parents, especially my Mom. I was a controlling person, and said many things I now regret. I now know that I am fortunate that GOD gave me a second chance to make things right. He gave me more grace....(see James 4:6) and I am now so thankful for that. As an 18 year old when I wrote this, I had just started a maturing process that God divinely directed. He made me into a much humbler, kinder individual. Believe me, I still have times when I am tempted to be that controlling person again. Everyday there are moments when I want to open my mouth and say something that is not Christlike nor necessary. I am grateful that God has given me more time on this earth to share HIS love and grace, and to point others to HIM. I don't know how much longer I have to live, only God knows that, and its in HIS hands.While I am alive, I will share HIS love & continue to allow HIM to change me.

                    <3 HIS Princess